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Sunday, June 05, 2005

Sun, 05 Jun 2005 00:08:39 GMT

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Friday, June 03, 2005

Fri, 03 Jun 2005 17:07:13 GMT

wow.
a lot has happened in the past few weeks.
School has been out for a while. I've been spending time in the HC with chey, dnaielle, temani, and elizabeth. Krystle has been gone which sucks. We got to hang out with Lane and Austin a few days ago. I finally got to talk to Freddie for the first time in like 5 months. I thought he didnt like me any more so I stayed out of his way and he thought I hated him so I guess we never really talked much. But luckily he asked Temani on the bus if I hated him and she told him no and that I though he hated me, so yeah now we have that settled. Umm... what else has happened. Oh yeah... we went swimming the other day. Me chey temani elizabeth and my sister Debra. It was fun. We saw austin ryan and bryson. Krystle's moving into my neighborhood wich is cool. Lane might move to Louisiana which really sucks cuz I like Lane a lot. Well I dont like lane but he's hot and a cool friend. Yeah so this summer has been pretty cool so far. oh...
ROBBY AND NICOLE ARE COMING TO VISIT ON JUNE 24!!
they're only staying for 5 days but its better than nothing. yay I cant wait! only 21 days.
Well thats all for now.
-becca

Thursday, May 26, 2005

Thu, 26 May 2005 15:35:19 GMT

yeah well im back.
I got back at like 10 on sunday.
I went to school monday tuesday and wednesday was a half day cuz was the last day of school.
Yep I got a bunch pf pictures and a good tan. I'll post the pictures later.

k im done.
I dont really feel like typing much.
My xanga is kind of dead.
-becca

Thursday, May 19, 2005

Thu, 19 May 2005 20:01:13 GMT

okay im gonna keep this short because i dont feel like typing a whole lot.

Im so fucking happy right now!
god I hope it last all through the weekend.
andways... my iPod broke on Tuesday and I was sooo upset, but my mommy went to Best Buy today and got a new one for me. It was free cuz of the warranty. She also got me the new Fall Out Boy CD and the Starting Line CD. They're so good. Im so happy!
On Tuesday my mom took my shopping at West Oaks for clothes for the weekend and the summer. I got some shorts and some shirts and a pair of flip flops. I got the most wonderful track jacket at hollister. Thats right. I shop at Hollister (this is for the people who called me preppy today, bitches.) And I got the most gorgeous pair of sunglasses at PacSun. Im so in love with them.

Yeah so Friday Im going to Galveston with Danielle and Krystle and a few other people for Dani's birthday. Its gonna be sooo much fun. Im gonna finally get a tan! Im coming back late Sunday so I'll probably update on monday.
omg! Wednesday is the last day of school! I cant wait.
I'll update later.
leave me comments to come back too and I'll love you forever.
-becca
(that really wasnt that short.)

Monday, May 16, 2005

Mon, 16 May 2005 01:37:14 GMT

well things arent going too well for me but I dont feel like talking about it.
so here are some photos.
enjoy.

here is chey in the gym on Friday. We were waiting to get on the bus for the field trip.

This is a plate of brownies that we got Danielle for her brithday at Ci Ci's pizza. They were some damn good brownies.

This is Jessica singing the H-I-P H-O-P HIP HOP IS THE LIFE FOR ME! song. fun fun fun.

thats me last saturday when bee, jessica, chey, and I went to the mall.

thats krystle having fun with temani and chey hehe...

jessica in a dark room with a blue light at some record shop. I thought it was cool cuz she glows in the dark.

we smashed the plate of brownies in Danielle's face cuz thats what best friends do.

thats a frozen mouse that Bee feeds her snake.

thats a dead lizard on Bee's back door.

me in a skirt at the mall.

Chey dancing in Bee's kitchen.

LANE!

more frozen mice.

Temani spitting out her coke... trying to spell LANE on the concrete with her spit.

a stop sign.

Lane took a bite of my cookie. (lol temani!)

Temani dancing with a stick.

temani and chey on the bed.

Krystle and her tongue.

chey, krystle, and hailey at tori's house.

at tori's house we decided to slide down the stairs in a sleeping bag cuz were just that cool.

awe... krystle and temani love each other.

yummy trix.

Gigi on the day of the field trip.

Bee on the bus on the way to George Ranch-- that field trip sucked.

Temani and her Taco Bell.

Chey on the bus.

Claudina on the bus.

Temani and Bee singing in the background.

ME!

plastic guns and dora the explorer stickes that we got at Ci Ci's from a 25 cent machine.

edit// may sixteenth, two thousand and five
i added found some more pictures from when we went to Ci Ci's Pizza on Friday. Dont you just love Dora the Explorer? hehe.

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

Wed, 11 May 2005 21:25:14 GMT

so nothing much has changed from Monday.
I stayed home from school today. I needed a bit of a "mental health day" yeah... well Im not sure it helped. I did manage to get 4 or 5 extra hours of sleep which is definately what I needed. Im not looking forward to going back to school tomorrow though.
Luckily tomorrow is the last real day of school for the week because Friday we are going on a field trip to some stupid ranch.
Its gonna be hot outside and its gonna suck. But I get subway for lunch so thats good.
today is the oh so very wonderful DANIELLE’s birthday!
happy birthday Danielle I luv you!! sorry I couldnt be at school today! I wanted to sing you happy birthday.
well Im done. I'll update sometime next week probably.

comment me please
<33 becca

edit//may 12, 2005
I got bored so I found some stupid quize So now Im posting it. Yeah this is pointless...

--FIRSTS--
First best friend: i think their names were Joshua and Javier
First crush: some boy in pre-k
First screen name: moviestarchick99 or something like it
First funeral: my great grandpa who I never knew
First pets: some dog named Texas
First piercing/tattoo: got my ears pierced when I was little .
First kiss: on the spinny thingy at the HC park… it was a Friday.
First boyfriend/girlfriend: I went out with some guy named dustin in 6^th grade… but I don’t think that counts… we never even talked… it was really pathetic. I guess my first “real” boyfriend was… Freddie.
--LASTS--
Last cigarette: I don’t smoke.
Last car ride: this morning going to school
Last good cry: a few nights ago
Last movie seen: Ring 2... funny as hell

Last beverage drank: water
Last food consumed: disgusting lunch at school
Last crush: I don’t like to refer to it as a crush… that makes it sound so elementary
Last phone call: cheyenne
Last time showered: about 15 minutes ago
Last shoes worn: my old vans
Last annoyance: the pep rally at school
Last time wanting to die: quite a while ago
Last shirt worn: pink tank top
Last website visited: xanga

Last song you sang: Maps by Yeah Yeah Yeahs

What color socks are you wearing? Im not wearing any

What kind/color underwear are you wearing? black

What's under your bed? dust

What time did you wake up today? 5 30

How many kids do you want? 2 or 4

What kind of car(s): mini cooper

Current mood: tired/bored

Current music: Running Out of Time by Hot Hot Heat

Current hair: wet I just got out of the shower

Current clothes: pink hurley shirt and grey PJ shorts

Current annoyance(s): they smell of gross pork chops cooking downstairs

Current desktop picture: Jesse Lacey from Brand New

Current book: The Realm of Possibility

Current color of toenails: umm... normal??

Current time: 4 36 pm
Current hate: not gonna say names...

Current love: I don’t have a love

--UNIQUE--

1. Nervous Habits? biting my nails, being worried, and complaining

2. Are you double jointed? nope

3. Can you roll your tongue? yeah

4. Can you raise one eyebrow at a time? sorta

5. Can you blow spit bubbles? ha...yeah

6. Can you cross your eyes? yes

7. Tattoos? nah I couldnt handle that

8. Piercing and where? my ears

9. Do you make your bed daily? no time for that

-- LA LA LAND --

What's your sleeping position? my stomach and my right side

Even in hot weather do you use a blanket? yeah

Do you snore? i hope not

Do you sleepwalk? no

Do you talk in your sleep? i dont know

Do you sleep with stuffed animals? no

How about with the light on? i cant fall asleep with a light on
Have a crush? I dont refer to it as a "crush" but yes I do like someone

Do you fall asleep with the TV or radio on? nope I cant do that either

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

Tue, 10 May 2005 00:58:12 GMT

my weekend was good. went to chey's and hung out with all those people in HC. went to San Antonio on Sunday saw my cousins and grandparents and aunts... blah blah blah.

AGH! I feel like shit today.
Im so upset and Im not even quite sure why.
no its not pms you perverts, so shut up.
I really fucked up today.
I've got like 4767595 billion people mad at me right now and most of them wont listen to me when I try to apologize.
My whole day was bad, from beginning to end.
It was just awful.
I almost cried in english and science. I just wanted to leave. Thats why I though about making myself throw up just so I could go home early, but I realized home probably isnt the greatest place to be right now.

I just feel like hiding. away from everyone and everything. Just for a few days until I can figure out whats wrong and whats right.

I also realized that its time for me to move on and let go of everything that I have lost over the past few years. Im not saying I should forget everything, but I should at least try to accept that its gone, im in a new place and I need to start over and start living my life here. In Texas. No matter how much I hate it here. I have to accept it and move on.

im done now.
-becca

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

Wed, 04 May 2005 20:58:18 GMT

hello. I think its time to update.
well Saturday was pretty fun. I spent the night at Chey's house with Jessica, Temani, Danielle, and Krystle. It was pretty fucking fun. We played with the most awesome thing in the world- an EASY BAKE OVEN! omfg! yep it was pretty cool. you wanna see some pictures?

first we made a cake.

when we took it out it looked like this...

then we baked some cookies.

and here is a lovely picture of Chey in her Easy Bake apron.

Tomorrow's cinco de mayo. im gonna wear my sister's track jacket that has a mexican flag on it. damn straight Im mexican. yeah...I'll update more later this week.
COMMENT ME.
-becca

Saturday, April 30, 2005

Sat, 30 Apr 2005 01:19:28 GMT

im bored.
Today was my dads and Hailey's birthday.
We got our year books at school.
yeah that pretty much sums up my day.

here are some random pictures I found.

Monday, April 25, 2005

Mon, 25 Apr 2005 00:18:04 GMT

hello.
this weekend was pretty good.

Friday: went to subway with chey and temani. It kind of sucked. All the guys came which I didnt like because they all kind of piss me off. Claudina came too. yeah it sucked.

Saturday: I cant really remember what happened. Hailey and Temani spent the night. It was fucking funny. Debra, Hailey, and I tried to get high off hair spray... it didnt really work. We also tried a sharpie, but that shits fucking weak. So Debra busted out the bacardi and tequila. I had my first shot ever last night. It was fucking awful.. haha. It was cool though. We also found were my dad's been hiding his nasty ass tabacco. That shits awful. Temani didnt do any of this stuff. She was on the computer the whole time talking to Robby. haha. That was funny.

Sunday: krystle came over. we watched Stand By Me. It was fun. I went to Krystle's house and Freddie and Austin were there. We went to the "Sophie Shack" or some shit like that. It was pretty boring. Then we went back to Krystle's and Freddie, Krystle, and I huffed some air freshener. It was pretty fun. Now im home talking to Robby and listening to ludacris.

kay well Im done. Oh yeah... I also have a few pictures that I'll post later.
-becca

EDIT APRIL 27, 2005
well here are the pictures I said I'd post. They suck I know, but I never said I was a photographer.

first are some HORRIBLE pictures of me that Hailey took while we were sitting outside of Temani's house.

I swear I have the fattest fucking cheeks ever.

I dont know why, but she took a picture of her jeans...
These next pictures were at my house when we were playing with matches and liquor.

We were trying the light the sink on fire using hairspray...

I didnt work so we decided to burn Temani instead! haha.. im only kidding.

So after that we found the liquor.
And last, but not least, my favorite fucking food in the world...

MY SUBWAY SANDWHICH! YUMMY!!